You do not see the light. You instead see the darkness that personifies the light. The tears from your eyes cause halos to appear and trick your mind into thinking it is comforted. But when the tears are washed away you realize the truth. It was actually a simple lie, but your mind purposefully thickened the plot. It is comforting to us to know that the reason why we stand at the bottom of a pit is because of a complex turn of events. Perfectly fallen dominoes creating an elaborate excuse all for the reason of making us feel better. In the end, upon reflection, we truly understand that the steps that led to this path were simple and the only one that made those decisions was ourselves.